My power supply went out. Something’s begging for my attention. I’m pretty sure it’s me. Continue reading
Clouds are actually really beautiful, when I’m not feeling grey. A little about the aha! experience of 1984, when I permanently came out of my former self-hatred.
Hungry, angry, lonely, tired: some of the things to be mindful about when life starts looking like shit. Again.
Not quite ALL about my 2009, because that would take a year to write. This only took several hours.
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RT @redrummy: Why do politicians make me want to stab myself? Why? DBag+ Cline: http://bit.ly/5Sbzh6 DBag++ Sullivan: http://bit.ly/4rBU1y # Status today: not crazy, just semi-grey. # My profile finally got hit by the rollout of Facebook’s new privacy settings. About … Continue reading
In bad headspace. Trying to head off the grey. #
Coming out of the grey. # Well, I _thought_ I was coming out of the grey. Maybe not. # Yet another example of GOP family values hypocrisy. CA lawmaker open-mic’d his affairs w/ lobbyists. http://tinyurl.com/lumho5 # Twitter app on Facebook … Continue reading
An excerpt from “Dream,” the fifth chapter of Mistress of Woodland, based on two actual experiences — including a depiction of that state of depression I call the pit.
The grey is a term I have for one of my modes of experiencing depression. I wrote about it three years ago: The grey is like a great grey landscape of bleakness, just dust & stones. Emotionally dead: I can’t … Continue reading