Category Archives: depression

Power source

My power supply went out. Something’s begging for my attention. I’m pretty sure it’s me. Continue reading

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Prepping for Netroots Nation — #nn11 #nn11lgbt

A couple of weeks ago I announced that I’m going to Netroots Nation 11 on full scholarship through the LGBT Netroots Connect initiative. Now it’s time to finish preparing for it — if only because I’m about to fly outta here.

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Harm at the center

Self-hatred — including, for many of us, internalized homophobia and transphobia — is the harm at the very center of us. Love others as you love yourself, but first: love yourself. Let no one convince you to do otherwise.

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Anatomy of an Epidemic: Book review

An extensive review by Ptery of Robert Whitaker’s book Anatomy of an Epidemic: Magic Bullets, Psychiatric Drugs, and the Astonishing Rise of Mental Illness in America, with a personal history.

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Alaska Love Poem

In 1984, during my troubled early twenties, I fell in love with a friend of mine. This poem was written to her. But it’s especially a poem about how I came to love myself, & to give up my former self-hatred.

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Actually, I kinda like clouds…

Clouds are actually really beautiful, when I’m not feeling grey. A little about the aha! experience of 1984, when I permanently came out of my former self-hatred.

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Pausing under the clouds: A how-to guide for getting out of the grey

Hungry, angry, lonely, tired: some of the things to be mindful about when life starts looking like shit. Again.

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My story of 2009

Not quite ALL about my 2009, because that would take a year to write. This only took several hours.

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It’s all just an act… or maybe not

My last trip into the pit — my name for the worst form of depression/despair I sometimes go into — was in November & December 2007. Want to know what it feels like? I’ll try to explain. And also how I get out of it.

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Saturn is Heavier in My Dreams

Saturn is Heavier in My Dreams My head’s getting squashed again, all low and squat like I lived on Saturn or someplace like that, where the planet is heavy, and a woman from Earth can’t lift her head. My feet … Continue reading

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